What is it about Lindsay Lohan that makes me love/hate her so much?
I just had a dream about her the night before last, and much like many similar dreams I've had about her, we were just friends hanging out, and I kept thinking "OMG I can't believe I am friends and hanging out with Lindsay Lohan... she sure seems different from how the tabloids portray her." I always find it odd and complicated how one can maintain an inner dialogue even within a dream... how does that even work? I remember thinking that I wanted to ask her about her drugs and sexcapades but worrying that I might offend her. Then, thinking that maybe all those tabloid stories were blantant lies. Either way, in the dream, she was calm and collected. I guess that's the way I like to pretend that Lindsay really is. Just a calm, innocent yet fiesty red head who would befriend me if she ever got the chance.
Here's where it gets embarrassing. I do actually really love Lindsay Lohan. I own both of her albums and have even been known to peruse YouTube to watch "live" clips of her "performing" her "music". I only use the "quotes" to be kind of funny, because really, to me it's no laughing matter. I also downloaded her new single "Bossy" from iTunes three times (the third time was an accident) and I'm hotly anticipating her new album out this fall.
Yet everytime I think about it, I kind of feel ashamed. She's not really a musician, and as a musician myself, I hate that the mainstream charts are full of teenage boys and girls with pretty faces who have been auto-tuned and studio-musician-enhanced all to hell. I loathe Britney Spears with a passion most people reserve for the likes of Hitler. I don't even consider Paris worthy of mention (although I just did) and I've finally weened myself from ever checking the gossip blogs. Yet something about Lindsay... I just don't know what it is, but something draws me to her. I guess that's what makes any superstar so powerful - despite everything horrible we know about them, we're able to dismiss their flaws and admire them for the blank spaces that we individually fill with whatever it is we think we want to see.
